My soul concern in you reading this is that you come to understand that Jesus is Lord. The very same God that created all that you see, loves you in a very special way. If you need to know more, or desire prayer, let me know. My wife and I came to know the Lord personally only a couple of years ago. We became involved within a church in northern Idaho, and began attending small group. Both of us knew who Jesus was, and understood the stories that were told, He just wasn't real to us. In the time that we began to study and listen, He indeed did become more than Jesus, he became Lord. My life has not been one where I have emerged from huge problems, but it was one where I was missing something. I had failed in two relationships, I had zero integrity and my lifestyle was less than healthy. Since knowing Jesus, I have been able to quit smoking, after a 20 year habit. My speech has been cleaned up, and our lives have been enriched, all attributed to the Lord's work in my life. All has not been smooth, but both I and my wife now have hope, joy, peace, patience, a lot more kindness and our understanding of the glory of God increases daily. May God bless you..